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That Moment You Realize Detachment Isn’t About Others—It’s About You

The first time I tried to detach, I thought it meant building a fortress. I wanted to shut out the world, make sure nothing could touch me. But detaching that way just made me feel lonelier. It felt like I was punishing myself, hiding because I was afraid. Then something shifted. I realized I wasn’t detaching from anyone else. I was detaching from the idea that I needed someone else to tell me who I was. That was the moment I got it: I didn’t have to run away. I could just come home. Detachment isn’t about being cold. It’s about being …

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Sandakphu: The Mountain Didn’t Give Me Postcards, But It Gave Me Everything Else

I canceled this trek four times over a year and a half. The distance, the days, the sheer uncertainty of it all made me question my limits over and over. Autumn in the Himalayas is supposed to be about crisp air, sharp views, and mountains that look like something out of a travel dream. But the mountain, bless its chaotic soul, decided to serve me rain, fog, and mud that clung to my boots like a needy friend. It was the kind of place where lofty expectations go to die, and I ended up thanking it for that. Day one was the drive—four hours …

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The Hardest Thing I’ve Ever Tried to Build

I’m still learning how to live inside my own head without needing to escape it. Some days I get it right; most days I don’t. It’s not a grand success story—more like a construction site where progress and collapse coexist. I keep thinking strength will one day feel stable, but it never does. One week I’m disciplined and calm, the next I’m negotiating with the snooze button and calling it reflection. I’m not ashamed of that anymore. Growth isn’t a straight climb; it’s a dance between falling and finding rhythm again. When things get heavy, …

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Why Bouncing Back Fast Beats Being Perfect

I stared at my running app, twelve minutes flashing on the screen for the entire week. The number was small, but the weight it carried in my mind felt massive. My legs felt fine, steady and ready. It wasn’t the run that wore me down—it was the story I kept telling myself about not being good enough. The mind, it seems, runs marathons of doubt long after the body is done. A few days later, my calendar betrayed me. A missed client call left five people waiting, stuck in a virtual waiting room while I scrambled to fix the mess. Usually, that …

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The Hardest Distance Is Between Your Ears

There’s a moment that arrives in every run when my brain starts whispering. Why are you doing this? You’re not even a runner. You’ll injure yourself again. You’re not capable of this. And every single time, I want to stop. What’s strange is that my body doesn’t even feel tired yet. My legs are strong. My breath is steady. But my mind—oh, it stages a full-blown protest. The kind where logic and fear join hands and stage a dharna in your head. I remember the first time I signed up for a Himalayan trek. I was insecure, unfit, unsure. And …

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The Planning Trap: Why Your Best Intentions Are Your Worst Enemy

The cursor blinks at me from a blank document as I sit in my kitchen at 11 PM on a Sunday, sketching out another weekly plan while avoiding the actual work sitting in a pile beside my computer. I've mapped out my mornings, blocked time for that project I keep postponing, and written down the same three priorities I've been writing down for weeks. The irony hits me as I realize I've spent an hour planning to be productive while avoiding the thing that actually needs doing. This moment becomes the turning point where I finally understand what …

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