Ethan sat in the cramped break room, stirring sugar into his coffee, though he hated it sweet. He wasn’t even thinking, just moving his hands the way he always did. Across from him, Mark was mid-rant about how everything was rigged—the job, the economy, life itself.
“Doesn’t matter how hard you work,” Mark scoffed. “The system’s set up to keep you in your place.”
Ethan nodded out of habit. Mark had been saying the same thing for years. But for the first time, something felt off. He wasn’t sure if it was the caffeine or the exhaustion, but the words sounded heavier, like they were pressing down on him. Did he actually believe any of this? Or had he just absorbed it, like secondhand smoke, until it became part of his own thinking?
Later that night, he sat in his car, watching the rain smear the glow of streetlights across his windshield. Mark was wrong. He had to be. If nothing could change, then why did some people rise while others stayed stuck? It wasn’t magic. It wasn’t luck. It had to be something else.
Ethan unlocked his phone, his thumb hovering over social media. He caught himself. That was part of the problem. He spent hours scrolling through other people’s opinions, complaints, victories that weren’t his. He closed the app and opened a note instead. One question: “What do I actually want?”
The answers came slower than expected. His mind felt sluggish, like a muscle he hadn’t used in years. He’d spent so much time absorbing, he’d forgotten how to think for himself.
The next morning, he skipped the break room. Mark’s words weren’t going to run his day. Instead, he pulled up an article on something he wanted to learn. It felt small, insignificant even, but it was something he chose. Not inherited, not absorbed—his.
Weeks passed, and the difference was impossible to ignore. He cut back on the noise. He started reading things that sharpened him instead of dulling him. He noticed how certain conversations left him drained, while others made him feel alive. The world hadn’t changed, but his mind had.
One day, Mark stopped him in the hall. “You’ve been quiet lately,” he said. “Everything good?”
Ethan smiled. “Yeah,” he said. “Just thinking.”
Mark chuckled. “Must be nice.”
It was. And for the first time, Ethan realized how rare that was.
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