I’m truly blessed.I‘ve family & friends who really care,Meaningful work that fills my day,A lovely home to rest and play,Then, why am I so emotionally insane? Numerous voices inside my head,Some are logical, some nightmares,A wave of emotions has cracked my brain,I’m fighting & thrashing against the current.It's a dark, gloomy and terrifying night,Drowning in emotionsI’m waiting for the sunrise. Don’t cry, you will get migraineIs it the past that is keeping you awake?Stop fighting and just go with the flow,I hear this phrase from …
When Breath Becomes Air
I had read this book a few months back and I read the last 2 chapters again this morning. The news of close friends and family members falling sick was making me anxious and yet ironically I felt that reading the autobiography of a talented neurosurgeon - Paul Kalanithi who died at a very young age from cancer will give me peace. And it sure did. It’s quite emotional, heart-breaking but also a profound and inspiring story of a remarkable man. It’s a book about embracing the reality of death which teaches you how to be alive, being …
Honest Talk
I’m not a writer. I can’t write and so I didn’t until I was 33. Even though I know, writing like any other skill-set can be learned. And yes, I’ve written countless posts that never saw the light of the day. The reasons varied every time but I knew this was a fear I had to overcome. And I was in luck. My friends made a pact of writing one blog every Sunday and I joined them on a whim. I knew it would be easy to write about work (given the long list of drafts and notes, I’ve gathered.) Thus, I decided to write about my learnings, failures - and …
Lessons Learnt Outside Classroom
I found this note tucked safely in my college notebook - my 'Idea Journal'. It took me back in memory lane. This is a receipt from a local market of the gift items I’ve purchased. Before I proceed any further, here’s a little background info. During my undergrad, I was the studious kid(aka. Teacher’s favorite). I loved computer science and was always trying to be two steps ahead of my college curriculum. However, for my post-grad, extra-curricular activities were my focal point. Primarily because I’m an introvert. I could spend …
The Comparison Trap
The reason why we struggle with insecurity is because we compare our behind-the-scenes with everyone else’s highlight reel.Steven Furtick We all know the gut-wrenching feelings that arise when we compare our worst moments with some else’s highlight reel. It could be about anything - financial, social status, physical appearances, etc. It makes us feel underappreciated, not good enough, and horrible. Even though we are well aware that there will always be someone who is better than us but we still want to be like them, actually be better than …
What COVID taught me
Hello world! Life in lockdown has been overwhelming, actually really frustrating. We are all hanging in there. As I sit at my desk gazing at the computer screen to write my 9th Sunday blog, I’m both numb and at peace. This year hasn’t been easy. I’ve lost 2 family members, my anxiety was at an all-time high with repeated episodes of depression, risk of losing my career, the constant fear of my parent's and grandparents' health, and lots more. Like everyone else, I’m scared, and being isolated makes it worse. The world has changed …