There\u2019s a monster in my head,
and it doesn\u2019t let me sleep.
A non-stop chatter on anything it please,
When I listen to it, I\u2019m never at peace.
Sometimes a friend, other times a foe.
Sometimes a pond, other times a storm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am a mystery to self, come to think of it.
Am I making it up for the attention I seek?
Am I duping myself to jazz up my life?
Is there a way to go back in time?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I will kick the monster out of the sight.
Get back my soul and stop living with fright.
Enough of this strange state I hide,
I\u2019m once again, the mistress of my mind.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
How do I confess what I can\u2019t comprehend?
My happiness depends on this or that.
The imaginary issues are keeping me in vain,
Will my life ever be sane?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Who do I become when the monster knocks?
Can I be the little girl dancing in the hall?
What is real and what is fake,
My psyche says everything’s the same.
The devil has sent the monster in my life,
to wreck something that was already fragile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I repeat to myself, it’s just a phase
I will stay put and keep misery at bay.
I don’t want to argue – no, not now,
the less I say, the better, somehow.
I\u2019m a cornered tigress with nowhere to run,
The only option is to attack and have fun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Anger, shame and all that I hide
I\u2019m tired, so let\u2019s turn a blind eye.
I bury it all like there\u2019s nothing wrong,
Suppressing the outrage for a little too long.
I try so hard to find a good fix,
Whatever I do, nothing still sticks.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Holes in my brain from my mixed up beliefs,
The monster is back with all its tricks.
Ten steps forward and then I trip.
Nothing makes sense, I\u2019m so damn sick.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am I the problem or the messed up brain,
My fleeting balance goes down the drain.
The monster keeps ruining all my plans.
I\u2019m trapped in a loop, no escape, so far.
No words can\u2019t describe how I feel,
I\u2019m a soft fur pretending to be steel.
Show me a way to let off the steam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
We are all fighting the war within,
I\u2019m evicting the monster, enough, that\u2019s it !!
For years we pile up messes in our head,
And wish for a clean slate in hours, at best.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Look outside, the seasons have changed,
The forests are painted in varied shades.
One cycle of life is coming to an end,
There is no better time to dance again.
If you want to help, just sit by my side,
And soon enough, I will learn to glide.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
There\u2019s a monster in my head,and it doesn\u2019t let me sleep.A non-stop chatter on anything it please,When I listen to it, I\u2019m never at peace.Sometimes a friend, other times a foe.Sometimes a pond, other times a storm. I am a mystery to self, come to think of it.Am I making it up for the attention […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_genesis_hide_title":false,"_genesis_hide_breadcrumbs":false,"_genesis_hide_singular_image":false,"_genesis_hide_footer_widgets":false,"_genesis_custom_body_class":"","_genesis_custom_post_class":"","_genesis_layout":"","pgc_sgb_lightbox_settings":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[19,10,31],"tags":[32,33],"class_list":{"0":"post-306","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-anxiety","7":"category-personal","8":"category-poem","9":"tag-anxiety","10":"tag-mentalhealth","11":"entry"},"featured_image_src":null,"featured_image_src_square":null,"author_info":{"display_name":"vasudha","author_link":"https:\/\/ideaweb.me\/blog\/author\/vasudha\/"},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ideaweb.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/306"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ideaweb.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ideaweb.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ideaweb.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ideaweb.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=306"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/ideaweb.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/306\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":315,"href":"https:\/\/ideaweb.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/306\/revisions\/315"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ideaweb.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=306"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ideaweb.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=306"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ideaweb.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=306"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}